I thought my last labor and delivery went quite well. Obviously there were some interventions that i would prefer to avoid this time around, but i have no regrets about our decision to have them last time because i believe they were the best decisions we could make for that labor. (Hopefully i won't go pre-eclamptic this time, so i won't be faced with those decisions in the first place.)
In some sense, though, being induced did make the labor very controllable. So, i'm a bit nervous about not being able to handle things as well if they are more natural and less under our control.
What i really thought was good about the last experience is that we were really present for the entire process. We were able to live in the moment and appreciate each moment for whatever difficulty or joy it brought. Generally, i was in my 'life is throwing things at me, and my job is to deal with them as well as i can' mode, and that is a good place to be. If i can be in that mode again, i think things will be fine.
But i worry that i'll get panicky and not be able to maintain that mood. Since i'm so restless in general right now, i'm feeling like i'm pretty far from that mood.
I'm not sure what sort of book i'm looking for. I'm trying to focus on the physical training so my body can cope with the labor well, which i think will help. (And gives me something concrete i can do now.) But there is only so much of that i can do. Maybe i should just do some meditation and calm my nerves down in general?
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Date: 2009-09-11 05:21 am (UTC)In some sense, though, being induced did make the labor very controllable. So, i'm a bit nervous about not being able to handle things as well if they are more natural and less under our control.
What i really thought was good about the last experience is that we were really present for the entire process. We were able to live in the moment and appreciate each moment for whatever difficulty or joy it brought. Generally, i was in my 'life is throwing things at me, and my job is to deal with them as well as i can' mode, and that is a good place to be. If i can be in that mode again, i think things will be fine.
But i worry that i'll get panicky and not be able to maintain that mood. Since i'm so restless in general right now, i'm feeling like i'm pretty far from that mood.
I'm not sure what sort of book i'm looking for. I'm trying to focus on the physical training so my body can cope with the labor well, which i think will help. (And gives me something concrete i can do now.) But there is only so much of that i can do. Maybe i should just do some meditation and calm my nerves down in general?