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stoopid dwarves
Jan. 15th, 2002 10:09 amWe had a role-playing session last night (Warhammer Fantasy, for anyone who may care). Role playing is something that i do mostly for Josh. I'm glad i do it, especially because i don't seem to play many other games with Josh lately. Its nice to hang out with people and have a structured activity and stuff.
Thing is, sometimes it annoys the hell out of me. Last night was one of those nights.
First of all, i get bored when i'm sitting around doing nothing. When my character isn't being particularly active, i find myself wanting to wander off, or get something else to do. (I couldn't figure out what else to do last night.)
Second of all, our party got roped into doing something by one of our more headstrong members, and i really didn't like the way it was handled. I didn't like what we were doing, and i especially didn't like the animosity emanating from the party member.
Third of all, probably important, i wasn't having a particularly good day to begin with, and was probably just getting irritable.
Fourth of all, my character being upset (because of a dumb stubborn secretive dwarf) means that I get upset. Josh's belief is that this shouldn't happen, but i don't know how to divorce my feelings from my character's feelings.
He also pointed out that its not fair to our friends when i get annoyed during a game. He's right, but it makes me feel like shit.
Right now i just want to quit this stupid campaign. I don't know how to fix it, so i should just stop trying to deal with it, right?
Unfortunately for me, walking down that path inevitably leads me to the 'Maybe i should leave Josh' location. If i quit role-playing, we won't have anything that we do together. I almost never play other games with him (especially when there are more people around) anymore. He doesn't want to go hiking, dancing, to the gym, or mostly even out to the movies. So why are we even in this thing together????
Sigh. I don't want to do that. Josh is my light. But, I can't fix who i am, and i don't really want to make him miserable.
To top it all off, i slept incredibly poorly last night. I'm still in a bad mood today. And, my stomach hurts.
blech.
Thing is, sometimes it annoys the hell out of me. Last night was one of those nights.
First of all, i get bored when i'm sitting around doing nothing. When my character isn't being particularly active, i find myself wanting to wander off, or get something else to do. (I couldn't figure out what else to do last night.)
Second of all, our party got roped into doing something by one of our more headstrong members, and i really didn't like the way it was handled. I didn't like what we were doing, and i especially didn't like the animosity emanating from the party member.
Third of all, probably important, i wasn't having a particularly good day to begin with, and was probably just getting irritable.
Fourth of all, my character being upset (because of a dumb stubborn secretive dwarf) means that I get upset. Josh's belief is that this shouldn't happen, but i don't know how to divorce my feelings from my character's feelings.
He also pointed out that its not fair to our friends when i get annoyed during a game. He's right, but it makes me feel like shit.
Right now i just want to quit this stupid campaign. I don't know how to fix it, so i should just stop trying to deal with it, right?
Unfortunately for me, walking down that path inevitably leads me to the 'Maybe i should leave Josh' location. If i quit role-playing, we won't have anything that we do together. I almost never play other games with him (especially when there are more people around) anymore. He doesn't want to go hiking, dancing, to the gym, or mostly even out to the movies. So why are we even in this thing together????
Sigh. I don't want to do that. Josh is my light. But, I can't fix who i am, and i don't really want to make him miserable.
To top it all off, i slept incredibly poorly last night. I'm still in a bad mood today. And, my stomach hurts.
blech.
